“For me, I took 4 tests, the first 3 were negative”

Sweet kisses, gentle touches, penetration that might’ve been memorable. Unless it was one of those drunken nights when you rolled over the next morning naked wondering if you did anything. Now a month later no period. So you go take a test and it might be positive. For me, I took 4 tests, the first 3 were negative. So imagine that feeling knowing and not knowing all at the same time.

So now you know but still in disbelief. Knowing darn well you did everything to get you in this situation. You might of felt empty, excited, overwhelmed confused but reality was a baby is on its way. I’ve seen relationships fail because the partner was jealous of the attention the child received. Some relationships became stronger because of the kids. Then you’re left with the one’s only holding on for the kids, counting everyday till the child turns 18 to separate.

When I found out I was pregnant I wasn’t ready.  I’m always working on improving myself.  So I always feel like I’m in the building stage which is actually a good thing as long as your executing your goals. When you’re as hungry as I am you have to take the good with the bad. My son made me stronger and showed me how to have patience.

Those first five years are critical for development. The different stages just in the first year are imperative. Sleepless nights, changing diapers, breastfeeding or making a bottle. I remember it like it was yesterday. What I would give to smell him after his bath. Don’t lie you guys know newborn babies have this scent that has you hooked. In those moments you don’t really think about the help you might need. You’re forming a bond no one can come in-between.

Whether or not your child came from a one night stand or a 10-year relationship. Even if it doesn’t work look at the bright side of things. God seen you fit to give you this person life to help assist in raising. The child is a reflection of our decisions. That’s why I’m thankful for Mother’s Day and don’t need a Happy Father’s Day wish.

I’m all about mending hearts. Even though that guy might not be around the way you would like him to be PUSH. (Pray until something happens) I know my little  guy is watching me. I might have my days where I bash his dad to my best friend but for the sake of my son he never see’s that side. How I wish I could go on a rant sometimes on Facebook but what would that prove. We made this beautiful love child.

We were put on this earth to create. My best gift in life calls me mom and I’m forever grateful for that. If you are complete opposite and you have the help be thankful. It’s not always easy hearing your child saying he wants a dad. What’s rewarding is when he says he has the best mom ever. So the decisions I make for me I’m making for him.

Saturday when I set up a Sin fitness boot camp class, I completely forgot about my son’s once a month Home Depot workshop. He lives for that one Saturday going to build whatever they have set for them. See this is where you have to find the balance. Yes, I could’ve made some good money. No it wouldn’t have measured up to what I’m instilling for his future. With this free workshop I get to help him figure out what he’s passionate about in life. That’s priceless!

Happy Mother’s Day to all the real mother’s. Remember you didn’t have to physically push or have a C-section to be one. Some that were able to have kids still turned their back on them. It may be hard at times but remember God doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle. To everyone that wished me a Happy Mother’s Day I appreciated it thank you.

Love Keisa.